2-Blackpen

Breath in and out,

 

It’s only one day i have already felt so much better, so much relieve that roaming my mind for so long. I pick up my black pen and start writing what i like about my life, what i have expected in my life and fail to have that expectation dream come true. It’s ok that we can’t achieve that, because it is a part of the learning process. I pushed myself too hard for the past few years and it’s very unhealthy.

Took me that long to realize this but i guess it wasn’t too late.

I have expected to have an awesome 21st birthday this year but instead i didn’t celebrate it and receive any presents, i expected too much out off it. that expectation became a root of greed. *Breath in and out* i understand that it is not important anymore to have a 21st birthday party. I celebrated my 21st birthday in my pajama’s and tell myself i will be strong and achieve more in life. I told my parent i’m fine if i didn’t celebrate 21st that was a lie, a lie that i should not have told. It’s was just to cover up my emotion and put up a brave face.

It is ok to feel sad, it is ok to feel annoy and it is ok to feel angry about everyone in the world. Because we are all human with emotions, but remember in the end of the day.

YOU ARE THE ONE THAT MAKE THAT CHOICE TO BE HAPPY!

attain that happiness!